Today I got my first ever real guitar lesson from one of my best friends- jim david cherry the fourthhhh :]

Hopefully I can make something out of myself, but frankly I have only a shitty electric guitar with the high E string missing with no amp. Fun. Oh! and i have no idea how to tune the bugger.



I have too many things to do and I can't make myself do anything. I haven't officially even practiced on my guitar and I turned to writing instead. Typical. I also am trying to force myself to sort things and put them on the shelves i had asked for as birthday presents. My medical program event is coming to life and I am freaking out. I have to pay off all this money and fit into the "professional" and "super genius" box for these people. I don't know ANYTHING about physicians and I certainly have no idea what I want to do when I grow up. My concern is dealing with the "now" part of my life and getting my shit in a secure place.



This thing is for kids with money, and I have zip. Living in atlanta with no money ever and no time for a job makes things way too stressful for me to handle. I have student loans before I even get to college! I'm trying to forget and not bash my head into the wall, but it becomes more difficult as each day crawls by. School work has taken the weight of the world and all I want to do is just escape. After the fun I had on spring break, it feels like everyone around me is so different. There are only a few people in this world I feel comfortable around, but in my normal group of friends I feel more lose with total strangers.

Everyone wants to impress everyone else.

And I'm not going to be apart of it.

What my heart says today: