@#$%$#^#!

I'm completely fucking sick of this shit.

I just felt like telling you. im sorry if you dont know or care about my blerb of anger

but can a friendship make you crack? like lose your mind?

because right now i have no idea what to do and i am writing this because if i dont im afraid ill punch some innocent person in the face and puncture their prefrontal cortex or something.

ha, which reminds me i am accepted into this medical program thing during the summer held at emory.
apparently its ridiculously difficult to be nominated or even let in... so hopefully this isnt a joke- because so far this is ridiculous.
it is supposed to make my chances of getting into medical school ten times better... but i dont think i can even afford that!
christ, the idea of a crappy car was far enough in reach.
oh and it is 2,000 something dollars. great. i can kiss that good bye.

so i dont know what i want to do, where i want to go, or even the slightest idea of anything i really want right now.
hell, my friends all think im a flakey friend, most likely. dedication was never my best quality.

so if you could PLEASE just kind of punch me in the face, that'd be great.