CA'09/<3?

I have found that when you least expect it, people come out of nowhere to help you through things.
There will always be the ones that have always had your back, but the new ones seem to be the exciting ka-bam out of the ordinary. Or even like in my case- the new isn't so new, but from an old friend in a new way.

I can't allow myself to officially romantically be interested in anyone for a while. Yet, I have found an interest that I can't completely avoid. It isn't necessarily "bad-news", but I don't want a relationship right now. Being single is absolute FREEDOM that I don't want to give up. High school is about the experience and being single is very necessary. I used to be the type that put my whole heart into something, but I slowly learned that I needed to slowly and gradually grow attached to a person.
I have accepted the fact that I will never completely be over the one I fell completely in love with, but I have had closure and now I have moved on. I feel better and more detached these days, and I can confidently say that I am happy enough with myself.

TOMORROW IM GOING TO CALIFORNIA. This is the trip I have been wanting to go on since fifth grade. No joke.
People don't realize this when I say this because they say things like, "yeah! I've wanted to go since I was born!"
No.
I have valid and complete passion and desire to go to california. This is one of the only things I've wanted in forever. I don't think I can explain how deeply I want to go. I would be willing to be grounded the rest of my life to go to this for a week (if I never got another opportunity to go).

SOOOOOOOO I'm bouncing off the walls at 11:33 exactly with coffee and adrenaline pumping fiercely through my veins. If only I could be there NOW.

OK. BED. FAST. CALIFORNIA.